Well, today was pretty strange. Since last Sunday, I've been feeling a bit confused and shaken. I'd been hard at work doing my assignment that was due on Tuesday, and eventually, thanks to God's mercy (I didn't think I'd be able to do it), I finished! But the excitement was short lived. Soon after I handed it in, I dropped the thought and I looked towards the work ahead. The confusion still remained. I prayed that God would help me find the answer, but no luck. Today, I planned to do another assignment, and I prayed again, and started with BSF. While I was reading, I found it hard to concentrate, and I thought...if I'm having trouble just reading this, how can I do my assignment?!...STUFF IT.
I had some mixed up thoughts...Had I not remembered what God did with my other assignment? I was panicking over it, but he lifted me out of it. Why did I just forget and try to move on? What was more important? God's gift to me, or some uni work? Who's in charge of my life? Who would bring me through in the end? What job am I gonna get? Where will I end up? Surely I couldn't do it myself (that's a different story)...Gah! What's the use?! Did I not trust that God would make things right?
God's response: Relax.
So...I'd forgotten to take time to celebrate and rest my over-active mind. Come to think of it, when was the last time I actually gave myself a rest? Seriously, these days, I haven't gone through one day without worrying about something at least once...yep, that was my problem. The conclusion? 'Screw this, I'm making cookies'.
So today, I whipped up a batch of vanilla crescents, then I read through a chapter of Halo: The Flood, followed by some stress relief with Ratchet and Clank 3: Up Your Arsenal...and now, I'm on the computer...Well, it was good to get my mind off all the uni work for a day. Still a bit worried, but significantly less; my mind seems to be a thinking more rationally. We'll see...Right now, I just think: wouldn't it be good if my worries would just eat themselves and stop plaguing me? Heh, oh well, we'll be right. God has a plan for me. As for me, lesson learned.
