Shocking discovery

Tonight, I made an unpleasant discovery. I prayed to God and looked deeply into my life, and I saw that the amount of love I have for God is very, very tiny; like a grain of sand. That's the sad truth, and I can't pretend that I have any more than that, lest I be living and working a lie. Still, a grain of sand is definately better than nothing. I'm not willing to let go of it that easily.

Study

Well, it's nearly time for exams. Right now, it's study week, and I'm preparing for 3 exams. Now, I wonder what goes through the minds of my friends when they study for uni exams. I keep hearing them talk about "going home to study" and staying up all night and whatever. I seem to be nowhere near as busy as they are. Well, I've been studying two chapters a day on average, just taking it bit by bit. Other than that, I've been playing guitar, drawing a bit, and watching DVDs. I just wonder whether I SHOULD be 'busy' like everyone else seems to be. I wonder if I'm somehow lacking because I don't do that much study.

Well, people can study all they want, but is there a rule that says I should be doing hours of brainbusting each day? Who says I gotta be busy with uni work all the time anyway? God never commanded me to study like a dog, so what's the big deal? Besides, I'm doing what I think is best for my own purposes - no caffeine, no nothing. Uni students can go cram all they want, but for me, stuff it. It ain't gonna get me down.